monstersbride

So I'm going to be a Google nerd and use their blog. Go see it at:
thetravelingsquid.blogspot.com
I will keep that way more up to date than this. Of course rereading through some of these posts, I will not delete it, I like to see how I've changed. :P

I've discovered what's wrong with people. Are you ready? Here it is, it's really amazing and thought provoking and completely and utterly obvious: people are not self reliant. They go to the supermarket and buy frozen food, zap it in the microwave or fry it up on the stove and sit in front of the tv or computer and spend 30+ hours a week doing it. They sit motionless and stare in the same direction for hours at a time. They are zombies in short. I have decided that I am no longer going to support the evil empire of prepackaged frozen food veg land instead I'm going to read a book and bake my own fucking bread. Its easy and only takes a morning or afternoon or late night, whatever. And when you're done you feel a lot better about things. You MADE something and you can eat it, it is useful. Sure crafty things are neat too and yes I knit and sew and all that, but nothing gives me quite the satisfaction as baking bread from scratch. I'm talking yeast, sugar, flour, salt and water my friends. Nice and easy and incredible for the esteem. It tastes way better than the shit from the store and I did it myself. I feel I can do anything, fuck I may even start a garden on my little apartment balcony.
If people were self sufficient we wouldn't be so worried about WalMart's stocks crashing because we wouldn't be shopping there anyway. No, I've moved on with life. I've decided to only have and do interesting and amazing things. Making my own things is part of this because then I will truly know how amazing it is because I DID IT.
And don't give me the excuse you don't have time (actually I've become deaf to excuses and wouldn't listen to them anyway) because the only excuse you can have is that you are not willing to live. Don't take a pill because you're depressed go for a run-if you have that much time to dwell on shit then you're not being very productive are you? (of course this is not be confused with the normalcy of melancholy- I'm talking about lazy bastards who don't try anything) You can DO anything you WANT. Everything is in reach you just have to stand up and fucking grab it. So stop making excuses, take charge of your life and whoever wants to join your club will have to bring the flour.

1.
No, no! go not to Lethe, neither twist
Wolf's-bane, tight-rooted, for its poisonous wine;
Nor suffer thy pale forehead to be kiss'd
By nightshade, ruby grape of Proserpine;
Make not your rosary of yew-berries,
Nor let the beetle, nor the death-moth be
Your mournful Psyche, nor the downy owl
A partner in your sorrow's mysteries;
For shade to shade will come too drowsily,
And drown the wakeful anguish of the soul.
2.
But when the melancholy fit shall fall
Sudden from heaven like a weeping cloud,
That fosters the droop-headed flowers all,
And hides the green hill in an April shroud;
Then glut thy sorrow on a morning rose,
Or on the rainbow of the salt sand wave,
Or on the wealth of globed peonies;
Or if thy mistress some rich anger shows,
Emprison her soft hand, and let her rave,
And feed deep, deep upon her peerless eyes.
3.
She dwells with Beauty-Beauty that must die;
And Joy, whose hand is ever at his lips
Bidding adieu; and aching Pleasure nigh,
Turning to poison while the bee-mouth sips:
Ay, in the very temple of Delight
Veil'd Melancholy has her sovran shrine,
Though seen of none save him whose strenuous tongue
Can bust Joy's grape against his palate fine;
His soul shall taste the sadness of her might,
And be among her cloudy trophies hung.
-John Keats 1820

1. Put your iPod on shuffle (or whatever mp3 player).
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
what i see-black flag

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
beeps-apartment 26

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
no place to hide-korn

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
kicked in the ass by adventure-henry rollins

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
it hurts your daddy bad-reverend horton heat

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
happy phantom-tori amos

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
remnants of percy bass-rasputina

WHAT IS 2+2?
homo depot-manic hispanic

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
disneyland-guttermouth

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
let's go somewhere-frantic flinstones

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
in the doorway-the misfits

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
do you wanna dance?-the ramones

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
psyclops carnival-mad sin

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
dancing with myself-billy idol (aww gee thanks mom and dad)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
smokin' banana peels-the dead milkmen (amusing)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
back beat no.1-cadillac angels

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
el dorado-agent orange

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
edwardo the barber-edward scissorhands broadway production symphony

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
black velveteen-lenny kravitz (guess it's time to clean out the ipod)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
hold on to yourself-nick cave & the bad seeds

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
untitled-blink 182

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
california uber alles-six feet under

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
running with the youth-total chaos

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
blank page-smashing pumpkins

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
act like you know-dwarves

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
fisherman's blues-young dubliners

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
keeping up with the kids-mindless self indulgence

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
mommy can i go out and kill tonight?-the misfits (that is REALLY amusing)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
tell me-sharon jones and the dap kings

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
janie jones-the clash


i think in the end all this proved is how much i need to clean out my music...

Ten years ago.

1. How old were you?
THEN: 14
NOW: 24

2. What was your online presence?
THEN: i think maybe i had an email, maybe
NOW: too much, hmm...

3. Where did you work?
THEN: just finished volunteering at the farm, started at fabulous mickie d's the next year
NOW: South Coast repertory

4. Where did you live?
THEN: clydesdale ct
NOW: san juan capistrano

5. Who did you live with?
THEN: Parents
NOW: jason and wes

6. How was your health?
THEN: pretty good, played soccer
NOW: descent, i should run or something other than yoga and the occasional walk

7. What pets did you have?
THEN: dog
NOW: none

8. Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend/partner/spouse/S.O.?
THEN: nobody
NOW: jason

9. Any kids? Any plans for kids?
THEN: nope, i certainly hope none jezz
NOW: NEVER!

10. What was your worst struggle?
THEN: meeting people, stupid girls spreading rumors about me, braces and glasses
NOW: figuring out relationships, trying to go to africa

11. What was your biggest joy?
THEN: reading in my room
NOW: traveling, doing new things, dance party in my car, painting, drawing, sewing

12. What did you consider your greatest accomplishment?
THEN: scoring a goal at the soccer game
NOW: getting a staff job at scr, going to savannah, ga

13. What advice would you give your younger self?
people are out to get you and you have to get them, go meet people break some damn rules, curfew etc

14. What would your younger self say to you?
but what if i get in trouble?

15. Looking back, is your life what you thought it would be in 2008?
honestly, i'm surprised i made it out alive, i had no idea what i'd be doing, i just knew it would NEVER be office work

i stare into the black sky ahead of me
the path has many rain clouds
thunder
fear
lightening
flashbacks
rain
stinging
snow
trapped
rain
warm puddles
lightening
amazement
thunder
excitement
rainbow
awe
i stare into the blue sky ahead of me
and wonder when the rain will come again

I've been so busy it's retarded. I can hardly type at this point. I've been working full time in a costume shop and working on two student thesis projects. One finished shooting this passed weekend and the other shoots next weekend! It's been totally crazy but it's good to be working so much. I love being super busy.
Here's some pics from the Art Center project I worked on:



Yup that's the gateway cow just incase anyone noticed. she has a 2500lbs boyfriend too.

And this weekend I'm building a dress for an LA film school project which I'm very excited about. So I'll post more pics after the craziness has settled. Cheers~

yea! so i worked on the shins new video for "phantom limb" and it was lots of fun. the story for the video was historic events like joan of arc, the donner party and cortez beating the aztecs. it was in the form of a school play thusly we had to dress 14 kids in three different outfits. which backstage was a total nightmare but everything looked great on camera so all is happy! i have pics posted on people.tribe.net/msmonster so check it out. hopefully the video will be out soon and you can watch it on whatever thing you all watch videos on. the head stylist i worked for was peachy keen and i hope she keeps me in mind for future jobs seeing as she does uber amounts of commercials which is where all the money is. so if you like indie rock and haven't heard of the shins, you should've because they're the sweetest guys ever! very nice and sincere not rock star assholes! yea for nice famous people! plus they all look fabulous in period clothes. so yea that was my insanity spree for the passed four days. ooh oh and we had a TWO PERSON HORSE! heck yes! yea for creative directors of music videos! Patrick rocks. he did another video for them too but i haven't seen it. will do research.
i've realized that my writng style has become super lazy and i need to work on it. because it must sound like a 12 year old writes my websites or something. sigh i'm pathetic. oh well.
i'm super excited me and jay are going to england for a week and a half and we leave on thanksgiving. so if anyone knows anything neat to do in southern england let me know!
also i painted the living room purple and brown, the stairway dark charcoal, light grey and lime green~ so i've been busy damnit!
i still have to call the photographer from the wedding and order prints of the pics i liked too. god i'm so slow! hehe oh well i've been distracted.
i also did another music video for erik carlson- he does piano r&b (the weekend before the shins video)
from the santa monica pier on the erik carlson shoot

me and the shins

joan of arc:

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/magazine/5406552.stm

after reading this article i realized how many dead babies are just hanging out in limbo because they're not baptized. pretty scary isn't it? hey i know let's get rid of limbo!!! i know lots of people are bummed out about this so let's change a doctrine of the catholic church from 2000 years ago, proving once and for all that the church is firm in it's beliefs and isn't politically swayed. isn't not because muslims allow "unbaptized" dead babies into heaven and it's definately not because there's a super high infant mortality rate in the two contienets that the church still can't conquer. it has NOTHING to do with that at all.
fuckers, hey why don't you start marrying gays while you're at it and giving abortions in the back of the church for discounted rates. but make sure you baptized that fetus before you burry it! (wow that's actually a really good idea- that solves the dead baby problem! i'm a fuckin genius!!!! ;)
all in all getting rid of limbo is probably a really good idea because what about all the other idiots floating around in it? like all the other people from the other religions who never heard of jesus or all the psychopaths and serial killers whos parents didn't baptized them. just let them ALL into heaven, what a good idea. heaven is starting to sound a little bit more like hell don't you think? aha that balance of good and evil has been tipped! now there is only evil! YES!!! we win!